Being held hostage by mundane things
It's been a long month, one with many struggles. It's hard to keep going from time to time and giving up sounds way easier than going through whatever was going on was. The mundane habit of going to work almost every day and dealing with the lastest drama was almost the nail in the coffin but I have triumphed. Everything is on the rails, and that's honestly the best I could've hoped for.
Sometimes writing really is just spitting out whatever you can think of on paper (or on a word document) and going along with it.
Sewer skewers for everybody!
I like playing video games, I know I'm very brave for admitting this but I do. But I'm also very picky, as there is only a hand full of games I've played and liked so much that I come back to it.
One of these games is League of Legends. Which is quite a widely known game for it's toxicity in the community. And I'm not here to deny those allegations but it's not what I, personally, play the game for. It's for the amazing lore of every single character in the game, the amazing design they have and new splash-arts that come out every so often. And well, the game is well designed.
I've met many important people in my life because of this game. My first long distance friend, that lived in my country was through this game! We had years of fun nights in call, we met each other, send gifts on birthdays and then sadly, we fell out of touch. But, there were more people, friends, to come.
One of them is my current partner. We met when I was still with my ex, and when I broke up with him it went quite fast to calling every single night and playing this silly game. And now I live with him, what a crazy world it is sometimes.
This drawing is of the character 'Twitch', a sewer rat! I've drawn him as one of my favourite League streamers "RatIRL", mains this character.
Quelling the darkness
I want to paint so badly, something large, huge and visible. Something beautiful and astonishing and meaningful.
But how hard is it to pick up the pieces and start at it. Every time I start a work I can hear my teacher say "getting started is the hard part, but sometimes you just have to start to get going, put the brush on the paper and draw something simple and small and start from there". And she's right, it's really as simple as that to get past the hard beginning of it.
These paintings aren't larger than life, they aren't impressing but they are meaningful and small. They are playful but also challenging.
And I'm glad to have had the motivation to open my sketchbook, get my paints and start.
It's really as simple as that, sometimes.
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